Erotophilic-Bliss

So I am dating at the present time and things are ok…..I’m pretty content with my relationships. I feel everything that is happening in my life is as it should be. I have only been dating for the past 7 months. Previously I was in a relationship for 10 years. That 10 year relationship was like being on my own roller coaster. There were lots of unexpected dips, turns and twists! Having experienced what I experienced I would say that there were lots of opportunities and challenges, successes and learned lessons, loving, crying, love making and yes lots and lots of growth.

Recently, I have been casually dating this ‘new’ man. I was prompted to share my feelings about this man in this post searching for my own answers to the feelings or lack of feelings that I have for him. Over the past several months there has been some distance between us. Some of that distance has been brought on my me. I was rather quite anxious to meet up with him when we began instant messaging each other. We talked on the phone a lot because it was new and exciting…..there was a lot of energy flowing between the two of us….a lot of sexual energy. But hey, for me it’s part of who I am. Yes when that energy has reached it’s peak (my sexual energy that is) it’s hard to tame!

So I have been digging this dude. We don’t live in the same state which is cool because at this point I am only interested in dating. After our first encounter I began to wonder was he really a womb choice for me. Seeing how we met online first, spoke on the phone then met each other about three weeks later. Womb Choice, right? Yes I said womb choice. Now this is a term that you may have never heard before. You ask…what is a womb choice? Well womb choice (WC) is that feeling that you get in your womb when there is that freaking hot guy ( or girl for some) that you feel like you just have to get to know on all levels!

With a WC you are so physically drawn to him you just can’t quite explain why. When you are around him you can feel his energy and he can feel yours. The energy that you feel is orgasmic! I hope that you are getting a more definitive idea of what I am talking about? Yes? I’m sure that you have been in that situation where you were so attracted to someone and it was almost unexplainable and you just couldn’t help how you were feeling.

Alright so I have been wondering since meeting this ‘new man’ is he really a Womb Choice? Meeting someone online is a little tricky…..kind of….or so it seems. So the first time we communicated it felt intense, the back and forth instant messaging. I had been putting out to the Universe that I wanted this man to contact me and he did. So there was some energy and anticipation built up around communicating with him. This energy and communication lasted for about 2 or 3 weeks. He had a layover in the city I live in so we were both hoping that we could finally meet each other in person.

Well it didn’t work out but he would be in the state again the following week so we discussed possibly meeting then. On short notice I decided that I was going to drive 2 hours away to meet him in person! I was excited! I rented a car and drove 2 hours west of where I resided. We finally met and I had mixed emotions. That first encounter was hot and yes my womb was still tingling but I was a little confused if those tingles were from just being horny or was he really my WC?

You see a WC is someone that challenges you and shows you your personal growth that is needed. A WC challenges you in ways where you may get mad if they don’t call, you get upset if they don’t say they are going to be there when they said they would, you cry if you break up, etc. But no matter what you still want to be with this person because when your womb chooses…..it does not matter what the conscious mind is telling you, you are drawn to this person. It’s been a little over 2 1/2 months since I have known this man and I am now questioning if whether my womb has been playing tricks on me or am I just confused.

I am questioning my womb because of my mixed feelings about this man. You see if a womb choice challenges you and shows you what areas of yourself that you need to grow, I am looking for those lessons. I am not feeling that challenged by this man or rather my reactions to his lack of communicating is not really bothering me. I do see that this pattern of attracting a man who is emotionally distant is relevant in this relationship but other than that I am not upset, no crying or no being mad at him. That is why I am asking who’s confused me or my pussy, LOL!

~Friya Love